| 29 more days!!!! |
[Feb. 24th, 2007|11:08 am] |
I leave in 29 days to the Middle East and the more I think about it... the more nervous and excited I get. I'm nervous because I've never been away from everyone for 5 months! I've never been in across the atlantic, I haven't been off the continent.
I leave on March26th and land in Amsterdam and then Tel Aviv. I'm going to spend a few days by myself in Tel Aviv, my hostel if 1min away from the ocean. I wonder if it will be warm there in March? Probably not warm enough to swim. Actually it might.. I just checked the weather and it's 21c there now. so we'll see! I have a couple weeks after my program ends to travel as well.. I'd really like to hit up some Egypt if I don't get to during the program.
Apparently I might have weekends off, so I'm excited to do some exploring then. I have no idea how to speak Hebrew.. or Arabic, or read it. Hopefully I'll learn a bit while I"m there. I've been trying, but I just never feel like sitting down and studying it. Show's my will power I guess.
I'm still selling stuff on my Ebay if anyone is interested. There is only 4 more days left. Annnd the white demonia boots are actually a size 8women's I've figure out. Says size six, but that's in men's! Silly me. They're still adorabley awesome. :
I've set up a blog that I will update while I'm gone. If anyone is interested the link is:
http://daniellesisraeltrip.blogspot.com
Have a lovely one. |
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| I am going to the Middle East! |
[Jan. 23rd, 2007|02:32 pm] |
I was accepted into the Israel program and will be off to there at the end of March, and I will be back here at the beginning of September. I sure am going to miss everyone. Especially my new kitten Bella... what a cutie, and I GUESS I'll miss Evan a bit too heh heh.. I'll be doing missions work in primarily Muslim communities throughout the Middle East. First I go to discipleship training in Jerusalem for 12 weeks..
I'm throwing a wine and cheese benefit this Sunday to help raise money... because the trip is really expensive. I'm positive it will be successful. Lots of people are coming, and I have like 6 prizes to raffle off, and we're doing a 50/50 draw. I bought lotsss of different kinds of cheeses.
I also am holding some auctions and selling some of my clothes because I am trying to earn some more money to finance this trip. If anyone reads this and is interested click zee picture!
Demonia, H&M, vintage stuff and more! Click the picture to check out my auctions. I'm trying to raise money for my missions trip to the Middle East, so I'm selling my wordly possessions... many of which I love. Lots of cute cute cute stuff!!!!!! And really decent prices too! |
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[Nov. 25th, 2006|01:08 am] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | the sound of wheelers computer | ] |
I move to the back to the wack today (couldn't help... I should go kill myself now). Not that I didn't like it out here in Vancouver. It's pretty cool I suppose.. awesome to just go anywhere I want and not have to worry about anything... just get on a bus or the skytrain... so much good shopping! It just sucks that where we live is totally dirty. The landlords are super nice, the just don't do anything that needs to get done (ie the mouse problem etc). Wyman (our landlord) told us if we move back to give him a ring, because he really likes us as tenants. Probably because we're super quiet. We didn't decide to move just because it was so dirty. Evan wants to go to school, and I'm planning on doing some missions in Israel for about 5 months. It's easier to not pay storage, and cheaper at our parents'. PS. I love Evan
I'm hoping that they will let me know if I'm accepted into the program for Israel by next week. It's with YWAM... so what I'm worried about is that I don't have a home church and they are concerned about prayer support, and I've been living with my boyfriend out of wedlock which I believe is a No No. Not that they know that... unless my references told them? So I'm stressing out over those things. But I really feel like I should be there. If it were to all work I would be leaving April and returning August. I wouldn't just be in Israel. For a couple months I would be doing an outreach in an undecided destination... but it could be anywhere in the middle east, including northern Africa.
As much as I love the cold it's really driving my skin insane. Much dryness everywhere!!! Evan and I hung out at Stanley park yesterday. Perhaps I shall add some pics.
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 21st, 2006|04:16 pm] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | on ma couch | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | A tribe called quest - Steve Biko | ] |
I've started to notice lately that I do not like confrontation. And I avoid it as much as I can. Since living here I've been hired 3 times by different places.
First Moxies, I did my first day of orientation, and decided to never go back. They called me for about a week, everyday.. and I just never picked up the phone. I decided I didn't want to go back because I would have to wear a moxies uniform which sucked.... kind of weird.
I was then hired at Earls, decided not to go to my training shift and emailed them instead of calling and actually explaining why I wasn't going. My reason? I had 2 days to memorize every ingredient in the whole menu, and didn't feel like humiliating myself.
Then I was hired at Joe Fortes last week. I actually went and worked there for a week. Only problem was I was hired as a bus person, and that sucked. Really cool, fancy restaurant, super nice people.. but I felt really out of place there. I wasn't able to go and chit chat my tables.. because I had none.. and it's all pretty formal. Lots of rules about my hair.. after the third day of trying to wear at least a headband in my hair I gave up on trying to make myself look semi-pretty. So lastnight, feeling really depressed that I had to go there to work, I called and quit. Then they just called me now and I didn't pick up my phone. No real reason why, it's not like they're mad at me.. it just didn't want to risk talking to them for some stupid reason.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
I have an 2nd interview with Telus tomorrow and they pay 18.19 an hour, so hopefully I get over this being unhappy with everything thing.
We are all finally pretty settled in. I just moved everything around today to make some more space. It is a decent living space.. not as cramped as I thought it would be. Because the floors are laminate I feel like I have to sweep all the time. So much dirt that doesn't get caught up in a carpet. There are these bugs I find dead on the floor everyday. The ones that are oval shaped, with a shell, I always find them upside down and dead. I don't understand where they're coming from!!! Bugs disgust me to no end, and I find these dead ones, but where are they coming in alive and dying???
I get my tattoo done on Saturday by Paul at Sacred Heart. Very excited for that.
Don't really know what else to say. Bubye |
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[Jul. 24th, 2006|11:13 am] |
I will be moving to Vancouver August 6th! Woohooo.. yes Aberdeen St. I'll be living on the boundry of Vancouver/Burnaby.. 18min to downtown by bus, and a couple blocks away from Metrotown.
I just need to leave. |
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| After being given 24hours to live at 11am yesterday, my dad died 21 hours later. |
[Jul. 7th, 2006|09:39 am] |
| [ | I feel |
| |  sad | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Rhianna - Fleetwood Mac | ] |
This morning at about 7 45am my dad finally passed away. After a lot of suffering the last couple weeks, God has finally released him.
I know it may sound completely lame that I'm updating on Livejournal.. but I need somewhere to vent I suppose. I don't feel like talking, I feel very very sick.
I spent my last 13 hours with him yesterday at the hospital. My whole family was there, he had visitors upon visitors coming to say goodbye to him. Even when we told him he had 24 hours to live he said, "miracles can happen". His mind didn't want to go, but his body couldn't do it. The nurses took away his antibiotics and his salene. They injected him with morphine a couple times. But because his liver wasn't working, the pain reliever didn't last long. Only for about an hour or so.
In the afternoon, everyone was gone, and I was left there alone with my dad. I fed him some lunch.. the last thing he ate. He ate a lot of it too.. for him anyways. He could still kind of talk at that point. He asked me who had brought the tv. I laughed and said there was no tv there. And he said yes there was, there was little men playing. They were playing soccer on the tv... odd, because he hated soccer. Because his kidneys had shut down and his liver was failing, toxins were building up in his body causing him to hallucinate. After he was given the morphine the hallucinations got worse. We just couldn't understand him if he mumbled anything, or he wouldn't say anything at all. His eyes would just open up once and awhile, and they'd get incredibly wide. Like he saw something.
Later on in the night I asked him again what he was seeing, and all he could say was, "Map". He was looking at a map on the ceiling.
My grandma stayed all night with him and waited with him until his body finally gave up. I decided at 12am this morning I couldn't watch him die, and I couldn't watch him anymore. Every breath he took felt like it could be his last to me.. my body would get all rigid and I held my breath until I could see him exhale. 13 hours of that just wore me out. I feel a little bad for not staying with my grandparents. But I was with my 13 year old sister, and that's hard for her to see him like that.
When he finally died. His nose had started bleeding and my grandma told him it was time to go, and he went. He's in a better place now, with a new body, no more addiction, and with some of his friends. My grandparents and I were asked if we would allow his organs to be donated. The only ones that would be good to anyone were his eyes. So, they're taking his beautiful blue eyes for someone to be able to see.
He was only 43.
I apologize if some of my friends read this before I call you. I just am in no mood to sit on the phone and call everyone. |
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[Jun. 27th, 2006|10:33 am] |
| [ | I feel |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | journey | ] |
My dad was admitted into MSA hospital last wednesday. His liver is failing due to alcohol. He has cirrohsis of the liver (meaning big big scaring and can never ever heal).
We were pretty sure he would die over the weekend. He started getting a little better on Sunday and yesterday morning, so my family and I were getting hopeful.
My grandma had a meeting with the doctor yesterday to see exactly what was going on. He confirmed everything... there is pretty much no hope for him, and should expect the worst. He has no bone marrow, can't produce any therefore can't produce platlets which help with blood clotting. If he bleeds internally, he's gone.
If his body drastically changes at all, he has a heart attack.
He looks pregnant because of something called Ascites, which is fluid build up in the lower abdomen, it also has an infection in it, so they can't drain it. It has been going down, but now it's moving to his legs called Edema... very very bad. If any of that infection moves up, he goes into a coma.
Even if he gets through this all.. he will never make platlets. Meaning, for the rest of his life there is a possiblity of banging into something and bleeding to death.. soooo.
The doctor said they're doing all they can for him, and making him comfortable. He's 43 years old.
I regret hating my dad for a year because of his addiction and causing my family to split up.
I regret not making more of an effort... I regret him not making more of an effort to have a better relationship with me.
I won't get to go to the airshow with him again.
No christmas, no birthdays.
No one giving me away when I get married.
He won't know his grandchildren.
These thoughts have been swirling in my head for the last week. My emotions are totally crazy. Sad one moment, fine the next.
My family is a wreck. My sister is 13 and losing her dad. My mom is sad for us.
I've always thought memorial tattoos were totally lame, but one is starting to look not so bad.
Anyways that is my sad update. I just needed to get it out. I have to go visit him later.. I don't know what to expect anymore.
My mom also burnt me a mix cd. I found it sitting on my computer this morning. A bunch of sad songs about dads, mixed with classic rock I used to listen to with my dad. Makes me happy, makes me sad. That was sweet of her. |
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| Boston and New York |
[Jun. 12th, 2006|03:49 pm] |
| [ | I feel |
| |  chipper | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Cornelius | ] |
Evan and I returned from Boston just over a week ago now. I've had no time to do anything thanks to work, and trying to plan out what is going to happen this year.
So many big decisions.
Here is my picture post from our trip!!!
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| Leaving soon! |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|10:43 am] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Broken Social Scene - Hotel | ] |
Evan and I leave in 15 days to Boston, New York and Montreal!. I'm getting really excited and a little nervous about funds and stuff. I should really write a list about all the stuff I need to pack. I have never gone away for a whole month.. I'm not really sure what I need. Does anyone think it's unreasonable to bring three bags? Like one carry on.. one backpacking backpack and a suitcase thingy? I was thinking, and I'm not too sure how I'm going to bring the stuff home I packed, and going away for a month and I'm a girl, I'm going to have to bring at least 3/4 of my wardrobe. God I can't wait for the shopping! I had my interview thing at Blanche on Tuesday. It went really well. My director is Mary H... she's actually insanely happy. It's the scariest thing. Taia and I were talking about it, she's like overly happy, no exaggerations! We talked for like an hour, and she toured me around. It was a little intimidating at first because everything. But everyone was totally friendly there. I got accepted for the October full time artistry diploma program. I just need to save my seat with that $800. And hope I get a student loan! I also hope Taia will be able to get in and get a loan and stuff. It would be sooooooooo much fun if we went together.
TAIA: If you've been in the work field full time for two years you're considered a single independent student and your parents' income doesn't matter. I looked it up on the loan website. When we come back from traveling we're looking for a place right away, and jobs. We already have just about everything else we need. We've been buying bits and pieces here and there like cutlery, dishes, cups and stuff. We have furniture and a bed... so we're pretty much set. It's really exciting! On Easter monday my family had a "family fun day". We went to Bridal falls and then the Othello tunnels.
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| Thirty Questions You'd Never Think to Ask |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|03:11 pm] |
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? "hmm the 'on the spot treatment' might be working"
2. How much cash do you have on you? $30 and a bunch of change
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? More
4. Favorite planet? Mercury
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? Sara
7. What shirt are you wearing? Black work t-shirt
8. Do you "label" yourself as anything? Not really.. interesting I guess?
9. Name the brand of shoes you wore today? Aldo
10. Bright or Dark room? Dark (I have a headache right now)
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? Don't know her
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? Falling asleep on Evan's bed
14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say? "where did you buy the tapers ms punk rawk?"
15. Where is your mailbox? Down the street
16. What's a phrase that you say a lot? "Excellent" (to my tables)
17.Who told you he/she loved you last? Evan
18. Last furry thing you touched? Jersey, my dog
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? none
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 19
22. Your worst enemy? Ms. Blant
23. Current image on your desktop? Glitter red lips
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "I'm going upstairs"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be? Being able to fly!
26. Do you like someone? yes
27. The last song you listened to? Hand me downs - Soul Position
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet? Depends if I was angry at her or not.. haha, kidding. I don't know. I expect Haney would first.
29. If you could punch 1 person in your life right now, who would it be? Haney's ex wife
30. What is the closest object to your right foot? Wires |
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| I'M NEED HELP! |
[Mar. 29th, 2006|09:58 am] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Nick Drake | ] |
I know this may surprise a few of you, but I am an addict
I'm addicted to the all you can eat SUSHI place!!!!! Oh god, I need help... I crave it... constantly.
Sushi is always on my mind.
Someone help me.
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| Taia's 20th! |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|02:22 pm] |
| [ | I feel |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | abba - vous | ] |
Last Friday night Taia had her 20th birthday. We all headed out the vancouver to go dancing. Unfortunately, I got sick. I ended up having to leave early because I really didn't feel well at all. It was fun to get all dressed up though for a bit. I'm sure everyone else had fun. The club was cool, played a lot of hip hop. Now I shall update with some pictures!
Ps. I didn't know madonna took that clip of "hung up" from abba's "gimme gimme gimme" wtf.
Hahah.. pose.
( temmmmmmmmmmperatureeeeee )
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| Panorama |
[Mar. 7th, 2006|09:59 am] |
| [ | I feel |
| | awake | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Turn Into | ] |
My family, Evan and I went up through BC into Panorama for about 4 days last week. It was for my aunt's wedding, the drive up was just beautiful. Panorama is a ski village 20 min outside of Invemere, it also is very very beautiful. A lot of rich, drunk pcople though.
( so pretty! ) |
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| No more picture updates today, I promise. |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|04:41 pm] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Belle Orchestre - the upwards march | ] |
I went to Gwen Stefani in November in Seattle with a bunch of girls. I didn't get my pictures until like last week, as I didn't have a camera. So once again, another pictures update... sorry :( 
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| Picture update! |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|03:41 pm] |
| [ | I feel |
| |  calm | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Ryan Adams - Twice as Bad as Love | ] |
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[Feb. 5th, 2006|04:17 pm] |
| [ | I feel |
| | calm | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Of montreal - Don't ask me to explain | ] |
Evan and I are going to Boston May 4th.. I'm
really excited. We're travelling around to New York and Montreal for
awhile, and staying with his aunt and uncle for a month.
And then we're moving to Vancouver this summer (L)(L)(L)
So excited for everything!!!!!!!!
Everyone is getting married...or their pregnant, or their getting
pregnant and getting married... it's weird. I just thought I'd mention
that.
I miss Taia, she's out in Victoria now. Remember last spring!? Not
working, driving around and yelling at kids and then eating.
Picnicing.... :o( Writing off stuff at your gastation (like air
fresheners!)
God my car still smells like dogs, and I've had it for 2 years.
time for work.
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[Jan. 27th, 2006|02:00 pm] |
| [ | I feel |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | MSI - Last time I tried to rock your world | ] |
"Male entertainment" with my mom, my aunts, my cousin, and a bunch of other middle aged women at a staggette.
The weekend of February 11th is going to be AWESOME!
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| NEW TATTOOS! |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|02:24 pm] |
| [ | I feel |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | Listening to |
| | Architecture in Helsinki - Frenchy I'm Fanking | ] |
I got three new tattoos and I just wanted to show them off.
I think they're totally awesome, and I'm really excited about having them!
I really thought this one would be perfect for my lower back.
Each line represents someone I love and care about, family and friends. We're all connected.
Teehee!!
CANADIAN GIRLS KICK ASS YA!
Hope ya'll enjoyed.
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